As Told by Ash.

Later, suckas.

ashlieluu — Tue, 04 Jan 2011 22:05:13 +0000

moving to tumblr, bitches.

wordpress is lame.

www.exitinghavoc.tumblr.com

News.

ashlieluu — Thu, 09 Dec 2010 01:08:17 +0000

BAD NEWS.

I hate my best friends again. and this time she is taking my sisters and turning them against me. I don’t get why, after being friends for 6 years, that she suddenly decides that she doesn’t like me. I haven’t changed or anything. She knew how much of a bitch I am most of the time. but we had fun that’s what I thought counted. I never ratted on her or did anything bad to her. I might have offended her once or twice with my jokes or cause I was irritated but I never meant to hurt her. She knows that. She knows that if I offend her she should tell me so I can apologize. She knows how much I treasure my friends because people who understand me are far and few between. I don’t get why she makes a huge deal and says we can’t be friends because I had ‘a tone’ with her. which I don’t believe I did. and even if I did I apologized. Just like always. It really hurts me that she does this so often. Losing a friend is a big blow to me and if she keeps doing this I might crumble into dust. My friends that I have known for a long time live to far away and she was one of the only ones I can count on.This time I think she is serious. I don’t know what I’m going to do without her. She was almost like another sister to me.

GOOD NEWS.

I haven’t switched crushes. YAY me! I still like ‘Ocean’ as Katie dubbed him

The Boy with Eyes as Blue as the Sky.

ashlieluu — Mon, 25 Oct 2010 18:57:03 +0000

I step into 7th period.

AP US History. Right after lunch. I’m always there early, never late because I just walk that fast. Nope it’s not because I am some nerd who cares about tardies, it’s because I want to make sure I have time to prep myself. For what?? Only the most perfect guy I have ever met. He is always one of the last ones into class. It’s cute cause he always greets the class in a new way. He walks toward the back of the class, towards me and sits next to me. I can hardly focus on my work or the lecture the teacher is giving because he is sitting next to me. My heart is beating a million miles a minute. Everyday its like this.

I’m quiet and don’t participate in group discussions much. It surprised me when he turned to me and asked one day:

“What do you think, Ashley?”

My ears turn red, they always do when he looks at me. He can’t tell because they are hidden behind my hair. Of course, to him, it’s just asking a question but to me it’s one more chance to look into his eyes. They are a piercing blue, and as stated in the title, the color of the sky. I could stare at him all day because of his eyes. I try to find ways to talk to him, because as everyone knows, it’s not normal for Ashley to talk unless she is ‘popping off’ on someone. I gather up the courage to strike a conversation but lose it by the time I get to the last class of the day. It’s never been this way before, never in my entire 16 years of life have I gotten so flustered just by sitting next to a person. Maybe, just maybe……

(I know all I seem to talk about is boys but I promise there is more going on in my life. The last post about Dolphin and Fred was stupid cause I really don’t like either of them as more than friends. I guess I was bored and thought I liked them. Something like that. The other important things involve my sisters and I don’t feel like typing ALL THAT DRAMA out onto this stupid thing….)

Whats up?

ashlieluu — Fri, 01 Oct 2010 18:43:15 +0000

I have been SO busy. Hence the reason I haven’t written in forever! Between FCA (Fellowship of Christian Athletes) FBLA (Future Business Leaders of America) Chorus, Musical Theater, Volunteering at the Hospital, homework and ballet I haven’t had time for anything. Luckily it had calmed down with auditions for candlelight and the pep rally being over but I still have to get stuff for Homecoming ready and start SAT prep classes on Saturdays from 9-12. I’m not so excited about the prep classes considering its early on a saturday.

So now that updates on school stuff is over now about my social life, well what little one I have. I am excited about getting a bunch of old gameboy games and a gameboy color. also a Nintendo 64 cause it is awesome. I’m really into old games right now. I figured out I am in love with someone whose name will not be mentioned so lets call him Dolphin. BUT we have no chance together so I have a tiny crush on another guy who we shall call Fred. I am trying to find a date for homecoming. Dolphin has a date and Fred doesn’t go to my school so I guess I’m out of luck.

Another Pathetic Rant.

ashlieluu — Fri, 10 Sep 2010 19:17:50 +0000

I hate my best friend.

She is such a child and she can’t just talk to me about what I did wrong. If I offended her, she should tell me and not ignore me like a stupid kid. I just want my best friend back. She knows how upset it makes me to feel like an outcast and she is the only one I can count on. She refuses to listen to me and she walks away when I tried to talk to her. I HATE THIS!!!

It’s Back.

ashlieluu — Fri, 27 Aug 2010 18:38:39 +0000

The first week back to school was terrible. specifically because of construction around school. construction+tons of students=blocked hallways= ME RUNNING ACROSS CAMPUS to make it before the bell rings. My leg muscles literally tightened up so bad that I limp inside the classroom. The only good thing is that My best friends 9aka my sisters and Savannah) are now in school with me and that makes the bus rides slightly less irritating. Chorus is my highlight of the day and lunch. and first period in which is the most cutest, sweetest guy. He will remain nameless just in case someone from school happens to stumble across this on the internet but we shall call him Limey, due to he fact he has a lime green backpack. I sit diagnal to him and he is uber polite and sweet and totally perfect. Besides the fact Iam invisible to him D: sooooooo I will try with all my might to be noticable. I even stopped dressing like a bum. Hopefully my wish for this year comes true

Pathetic Rant

ashlieluu — Fri, 13 Aug 2010 20:59:32 +0000

I decided that school is going to suck. I was excited before cause Ali, Anna and Savannah would be there but I realized nothing would change. I hate school. Always the same people talking about the same things.

“Did you hear about Austin and Casey?’

“I am going to flunk my Algebra exam”

“I heard Tessa is having a baby”

blah blah blah. It’s all so boring and trivial. In order to keep my sanity in all the gossip all I can do is smile and be polite. It’s not like I get the chance to talk very often so when I do I don’t want to offend the person who had enough pity for me to lower themselves down to my level just to talk to me. I’m a coward. Hiding behind either a smile or burying my nose in a book to cover the fact that I’m lonely. My closest friends don’t even see it. I just now am realizing all this and do you want to know what made me notice. Of course it was damn anime. I was reading a Fai fanfic and I was like

“hm. I wonder why Fai smiles to hide his pain. That sure is dumb.”

Then it hit me. I do it too. and Its frustrating because it’s so dumb. I have tons of people who care about me that I could talk to, but I don’t. Maybe its cause I don’t want to burden them or something. Hell if I know.

ALSO I AM SO STUPID! I keep on crushing on guys that I can’t have. SO I end up having to keep it to myself and it hurts me. AGH IM SO DUMB. Why can’t anime guys be real? cause if they were I would find my prince charming like that! *snaps*

On another totally unrelated note I have been having really freaky dreams recently . Like me and Kate getting preggo simultaneously. weird.

Thats the end of my rant about me being pathetic.

Oops I did it again!

ashlieluu — Sat, 07 Aug 2010 12:17:16 +0000

dammit.

I started crushing on someone I shouldn’t again. He has a girlfriend and she is my friend. which sucks cause even IF they broke up (which they always get back together anyways) I still couldn’t tell him cause she would be mad. The only person I told was Savannah. and everyone who reads my blog. who is NO ONE so it doesn’t matter lol. I hate putting myself in crappy, emotional shreddding, positions.

Anyways we are going to St. Augustine today. so I’m up at like 7:00. which again sucks cause I slept like crap last night.

@##$@#%^$#()^^$@%#

ashlieluu — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 00:57:33 +0000

MOTHER******!!!!

I’m watching Vampire Diaries with Savannah and my sisters AND MY FAVORITE CHARACTER DIED!!

F***ING DAMON KILLED HER!

sure she was only in one episode but Lexi was pimp, man. Damon is such an ass.

and Elaina is being a bitch and Jeremey is being a crybaby and Stefan is….being gay. but Hawt.

Camp and MetroCon.

ashlieluu — Mon, 19 Jul 2010 18:52:58 +0000

Camp. Was. Awesome! It really opened my eyes to a lot of things.

Now onto MetroCon!! This weekend is going to be awesome as well!! Katie will be down which I am psyched about!!

She is gonna make MetroCon SO much more interesting!

All of the Youth @ 2010 Life Camp.

My friends!!

Katie and I @ the beach.

lol. Katie was a bug